Holy Wednesday: A Fish and a Fig Tree – When God Confronts the Heart

Two Warnings. One God. Your Heart.

God always pursues—not to punish, but to transform.

Scripture

Jonah 4:1–4 (ESV)

Jonah’s Anger at the Lord’s Compassion

But to Jonah this seemed very wrong, and he became angry. He prayed to the Lord, “Isn’t this what I said, Lord, when I was still at home? That is what I tried to forestall by fleeing to Tarshish. I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity. Now, Lord, take away my life, for it is better for me to die than to live.”

But the Lord replied, “Is it right for you to be angry?”

Matthew 21:18–22 (ESV)

Jesus Curses a Fig Tree

18 Early in the morning, as Jesus was on his way back to the city, he was hungry. 19 Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves. Then he said to it, “May you never bear fruit again!” Immediately the tree withered.

20 When the disciples saw this, they were amazed. “How did the fig tree wither so quickly?” they asked.

21 Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done. 22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

Reflection

I don’t know how to explain it, and don’t ask me how—this Holy Wednesday morning, Holy Spirit immediately brought Jonah to mind when I was meditating on Kenyon Draughon’s devotional published on the First Baptist Lubbock’s website (https://open.substack.com/pub/firstbaptistchurchlubbock/p/holy-tuesday-all-leaves-no-fruit?utm_campaign=post-expanded-share&utm_medium=web ). Suddenly the connection between Jonah and the fig tree became so clear: they are the same story told two different ways!!!

Jonah is a prophet with perfect theology on his lips but a withered heart inside. He preached the greatest revival in the Old Testament—an entire pagan city humbled itself before God—yet Jonah stormed off, angry that God was merciful. He looked obedient on the outside, but inside, he was resentful, bitter, and spiritually barren. Jonah had leaves, but no fruit.

Jesus approached it hungry for fruit. Its leaves advertised life, promise, and abundance—but it had nothing to offer. Just like Jonah. Just like Israel in Jesus’ day. Just like us, when we look the part on the outside while resisting transformation on the inside.

The fig tree speaks of pretended spirituality—religion without repentance, leaves without love, performance without heart.

Jonah reveals the same truth. He told God, “I knew You were gracious and compassionate,” yet refused to let that compassion change him. He spoke truth with his mouth but refused to embody it with his life.

Both the fish and the fig tree reveal this:
God is after the heart.
Not polished appearances.
Not reluctant obedience.
Not a religious performance.

He wants people who bear real fruit—humility, repentance, compassion, mercy, and a heart shaped by His grace.

The withered fig tree is a warning.
Jonah’s angry heart is a mirror.
Both invite us to soul‑examination during Holy Week.
And both remind us that God always pursues—not to punish, but to transform.


Prayer

Heavenly Father,
Search my heart today.
Expose the places where I am like Jonah—where I resist Your compassion or cling to my own will.
Reveal the areas where I am like the fig tree—full of leaves yet lacking true spiritual fruit.
Make my heart soft, humble, and responsive to You.
Teach me to love what You love,
to extend the mercy You have extended to me,
and to bear the fruit that honors Your name.
Cleanse me, transform me, and fill me with Your life.
Amen.

The Prayer Path — Following King Jesus, step by step, in prayer

Holy Monday: The Cluttered Temple and the Cluttered Heart

Matthew 21:12-13

by Pastor Dee

On Holy Monday, we follow Jesus into the temple courts, where He overturns tables, scatters coins, and confronts a system that had drifted far from God’s heart. Matthew tells us:

“Jesus entered the temple and drove out all who sold and bought in the temple, and he overturned the tables of the money‑changers and the seats of those who sold pigeons. He said to them, ‘It is written, My house shall be called a house of prayer, but you make it a den of robbers.’”
—Matthew 21:12–13 (ESV)

Jesus’ actions may seem startling, but they reveal a holy tension: righteous anger and merciful purification. His anger is not impulsive or petty—it is the holy love of God confronting whatever obstructs worship, burdens the vulnerable, and distracts God’s people from their true calling.


The Cluttered Temple and the Cluttered Heart

Life becomes cluttered with distractions. Many of them are good things—work, family, responsibilities, even ministry itself. But good things can quietly overshadow what is best. Slowly, subtly, our hearts become like the temple courts of Jesus’ day: noisy, crowded, and spiritually unfocused.

We do not see ourselves among the merchants, yet we recognize the drift:

  • Priorities become disordered.
  • Busyness replaces devotion.
  • Reputation outweighs righteousness.
  • Ambition begins to define identity.

This is why Jesus’ cleansing of the temple is not just an event to observe; it is an invitation to inner renewal. As Mike Chung notes, purification is part of God’s loving discipline—a cleansing that rescues us from “an overzealous appetite for greed, ambition, prominence, reputation, and fame.”

Holy Monday calls us to open the doors of our hearts and allow Jesus to overturn whatever keeps us from loving God and others wholeheartedly.


A God Who Defends the Vulnerable

The temple marketplace was more than commercial—it was exploitative. During Passover, poor worshippers purchased doves at unjust, inflated prices. The very place designed for prayer—especially for the nations—had become inaccessible to those who most needed God’s presence.

Jesus’ anger is not only toward corruption in worship; it is compassion for the poor.

Holy Monday reminds us:

  • God defends the oppressed.
  • He despises deceit and religious manipulation.
  • Justice is an expression of His holiness.

Throughout Scripture, God calls His people to protect the alien, the poor, and the overlooked. Jesus embodies this truth as He defends the vulnerable right in the temple courts.


After Cleansing Comes Healing

Matthew adds a beautiful detail:

“And the blind and the lame came to him in the temple, and He healed them.”
—Matthew 21:14 (ESV)

Once the noise is cleared and the corruption removed, the temple becomes what it was always meant to be—a place of healing.

This sequence is deeply personal:

  1. Cleansing—Jesus removes what does not belong.
  2. Restoration—He heals what is broken.
  3. Renewal—He restores our capacity for true worship.

This is the spiritual rhythm of Holy Monday: Jesus cleanses us, not to condemn, but to restore.


Holy Monday Invitation

Today, let Jesus walk through the inner courts of your heart.
Let Him overturn what distracts.
Let Him cleanse what has become distorted.
Let Him restore what has grown weak.

And then—let Him heal.


Prayer for Holy Monday

Heavenly Father,
Cleanse the temple of my heart.
Remove the clutter of misplaced priorities, selfish ambition, and quiet sins that dull my love for You.
Drive out anything that hinders worship, burdens the vulnerable, or keeps me from walking in justice and mercy.
Make my heart a true house of prayer—
a place where Your presence is welcomed,
Your Word is honored,
and Your healing flows freely.
As You once restored the temple courts,
restore me today.
Amen.

Holy Week: Palm Sunday — The Redefining of Kingship

By Pastor Dee

Holy Week arrives like a sacred invitation, drawing us into the final days of Jesus’ earthly ministry and inviting us to follow Him with deeper attention and tender devotion. It is a week rich with meaning, prophecy, and fulfillment. Palm Sunday stands at the gateway, not merely as a ceremonial tradition, but as the moment when Jesus steps into His identity as Israel’s promised King. What unfolds in Matthew 21:1–11 is both deliberate and divine, revealing a kingship unlike any the world had ever known.


Jesus Comes to Jerusalem as King (Matthew 21:1-11)

21 As they approached Jerusalem and came to Bethphage on the Mount of Olives, Jesus sent two disciples, saying to them, “Go to the village ahead of you, and at once you will find a donkey tied there, with her colt by her. Untie them and bring them to me. If anyone says anything to you, say that the Lord needs them, and he will send them right away.”

This took place to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet:

“Say to Daughter Zion,
    ‘See, your king comes to you,
gentle and riding on a donkey,
    and on a colt, the foal of a donkey.’”[a]

The disciples went and did as Jesus had instructed them. They brought the donkey and the colt and placed their cloaks on them for Jesus to sit on. A very large crowd spread their cloaks on the road, while others cut branches from the trees and spread them on the road. The crowds that went ahead of him and those that followed shouted,

“Hosanna[b] to the Son of David!”

“Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”[c]

“Hosanna[d] in the highest heaven!”

10 When Jesus entered Jerusalem, the whole city was stirred and asked, “Who is this?”

11 The crowds answered, “This is Jesus, the prophet from Nazareth in Galilee.”🌿 Prophecy Fulfilled With Purpose

When Matthew tells the story of Jesus’ entry into Jerusalem, he highlights the intentionality of every move Jesus makes. The evangelist goes out of his way to connect the moment to Zechariah’s ancient prophecy, reminding the reader that the Messiah would come “humble and mounted on a donkey, on a colt, the foal of a beast of burden.” Jesus sends His disciples to retrieve the animals. He is the fulfillment of Scripture. He embodies the promised King in a way that is unmistakable to anyone familiar with the prophetic story. This intentional fulfillment reveals layers of messianic meaning. Jesus is declaring that He is indeed the Son of David, the long-awaited King who would come to restore God’s people. Yet He does so with a posture so unexpected—so gentle—that many failed to grasp the fullness of what was happening before their eyes. His kingship is real, but it is not wielded with coercion or conquest. Matthew wants his readers to see that Jesus’ authority is expressed in humility, and His arrival is the quiet unveiling of God’s redemptive plan.


🌿 The Royal Donkey of Peace

The image of Jesus riding into Jerusalem on a donkey is often misunderstood in modern times, yet for ancient audiences it carried unmistakable significance. A donkey was not the mount of a poor man but the mount of a peaceful king. In the ancient world, rulers who approached a city for war rode a horse, signaling strength, aggression, and military intent. But a king who approached on a donkey announced a mission of peace and reconciliation. Zechariah had declared that Israel’s King would come this way, and Jesus’ choice of animal was a theological statement as much as a symbolic one. This also connects Jesus to the story of King David, who left Jerusalem on a donkey during Absalom’s rebellion. Zechariah’s promise that the true King would return to Zion on a donkey served as a reminder that David’s Son, the Messiah, would restore what had been broken. Jesus follows that very path. His entry into Jerusalem is not a political uprising but a peaceful reclaiming of His rightful rule. He brings peace between God and humanity, offering restoration, forgiveness, and the healing of fractured hearts and communities.


🌿 The Cry of the Crowds: “Hosanna!”

As Jesus enters the city, the crowds respond in a way that reveals their recognition of something sacred unfolding. They spread their cloaks across the road, an act of submission historically reserved for royalty. They cut branches from the trees and wave them in celebration, echoing the joyful processions of Israel’s past, such as Solomon’s coronation and the Maccabean rededication of the temple. Their shouts ring with prophetic meaning: “Hosanna to the Son of David! Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord!” The word “Hosanna” is a cry derived from Psalm 118, meaning “Save us, Lord.” It is both a plea for deliverance and a declaration of hope. The crowd may not have understood the full nature of Jesus’ mission, but they sensed that God was near and that the long-awaited King had finally arrived. Their voices rise in expectation, longing for salvation, and recognizing Jesus as the One who carries the authority and presence of God.


🌿 Honor and Humility, Triumph and Tragedy

Palm Sunday contains a profound irony that Matthew’s Gospel does not shy away from. Jesus enters Jerusalem in triumph, honored as the Son of David and welcomed as King. Yet the humility of His arrival hints at the path ahead. The same crowds who celebrate Him will later stand silent as He is condemned, or even join the chorus demanding His crucifixion. The One hailed as King on Sunday will be executed under the sign, “This is Jesus, the King of the Jews,” on Friday. The juxtaposition of honor and tragedy emphasizes the kind of Messiah Jesus came to be. He is not a conquering military hero but the suffering servant foretold by the prophets. His victory will not be won by force but by self-giving love, and His throne will first be a cross. Palm Sunday holds together the beauty of His humble arrival and the weight of His sacrificial mission. His gentle entry on a donkey prepares the way for the redemptive power of His death and resurrection.


🌿 A Kingship That Looks Forward

Palm Sunday is not merely the beginning of Holy Week; it is a glimpse into both past promises and future hope. The King who comes in peace will one day return in glory. Revelation describes Jesus’ second coming on a white horse, the mount of a conquering King who brings final justice and perfect peace. The humility of His first entry does not diminish His authority—it reveals the depth of His love. His second entry will reveal the fullness of His reign. Palm Sunday calls us to see Jesus as He truly is: the humble King who came to save, the suffering King who died to redeem, and the victorious King who will return to restore all things. As Holy Week begins, we are invited to welcome Him into our hearts with the same cry the crowds lifted long ago—“Hosanna. Save us, Lord.”

🌿 Why It Is Important to Worship and Understand Holy Week — The King Jesus Gospel

It is important to worship and understand Holy Week because this week reveals the heart of what the New Testament calls the King Jesus Gospel—the good news that Jesus is the long‑awaited King who has come to inaugurate God’s kingdom, redeem His people, and reign over creation with justice, mercy, and everlasting peace. Holy Week is not simply the story of our personal salvation; it is the unveiling of God’s covenant promises stretching from Abraham to David and from the prophets to the apostles. It is the moment in which God’s redemptive plan reaches its climax through the royal mission of Jesus Christ. Palm Sunday shows the King entering His city; the Last Supper reveals the covenant meal of the Kingdom; Good Friday displays the King laying down His life for His subjects; Holy Saturday holds the silence of waiting; and Easter morning announces the King’s victory over death and His enthronement as Lord. To worship during Holy Week is to declare with the early church that Jesus is not merely a teacher or healer, but the crucified, risen, and reigning King whose rule brings salvation to the world. Understanding Holy Week anchors our faith in the full gospel—the grand biblical proclamation that Jesus is King, His kingdom has begun, and all who follow Him are invited to live under His reign. When we worship through the events of this week, we align our hearts with the story God Himself is telling: the story of the King who arrived in humility, conquered through love, triumphed through sacrifice, and lives forever as the world’s true Lord.

Eight Days Later: When Jesus Comes Back for the One Who Missed It

Thomas, Covenant Mercy, and the New Creation Rhythm of God

I’m writing this from Richardson, Texas, in the middle of Your Time to Shine 2026 with Sweet Adelines Region 25. It’s a weekend filled with harmony, community, and the joy of voices rising together. And maybe that’s why this passage from John 20 has been stirring in my heart — because it’s a story about a missing voice, a broken chord, and the God who refuses to let the song resolve without restoring the one who was not in the room. There’s a detail in this story we often overlook: Jesus appears to Thomas eight days later. Not immediately. Not the next morning. Eight days. And in Scripture, eight is never incidental. It carries the weight of covenant, new creation, and God’s unwavering commitment to finish what He begins.

Jesus Appears to Thomas

Scripture — John 20:24–29 (NLT)

24 One of the twelve disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin),[a] was not with the others when Jesus came. 25 They told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he replied, “I won’t believe it unless I see the nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side.” 26 Eight days later the disciples were together again, and this time Thomas was with them. The doors were locked; but suddenly, as before, Jesus was standing among them. “Peace be with you,” he said. 27 Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and look at my hands. Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don’t be faithless any longer. Believe!” 28 “My Lord and my God!” Thomas exclaimed. 29 Then Jesus told him, “You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.” “One of the twelve disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin), was not with the others when Jesus came. They told him, ‘We have seen the Lord!’ But he replied, ‘I won’t believe it unless I see the nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side.’ Eight days later the disciples were together again, and this time Thomas was with them. The doors were locked; but suddenly, as before, Jesus was standing among them. ‘Peace be with you,’ he said. Then he said to Thomas, ‘Put your finger here, and look at my hands. Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don’t be faithless any longer. Believe!’ ‘My Lord and my God!’ Thomas exclaimed. Then Jesus told him, ‘You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.’”

Reflection

Thomas missed the first gathering. Scripture doesn’t tell us why. Maybe grief isolated him. Maybe fear kept him away. Maybe he simply couldn’t bear to hope again. But here is the beauty of covenant: God’s faithfulness is not dependent on our flawless presence. Jesus doesn’t shame him. He doesn’t scold him. He doesn’t say, “Thomas, you should’ve been there.” Instead, Jesus returns. And John makes sure we know when He returns: eight days later. In Scripture, the eighth day is the day of new beginnings — the day beyond the completed cycle of seven. It’s the day of covenant identity (circumcision on the eighth day), new creation (eight people stepping out of the ark), and consecration (priests beginning ministry on the eighth day). The early church even called Sunday — the day of resurrection — the Eighth Day, the dawn of God’s new world. So when Jesus appears to Thomas on the eighth day, He is doing more than accommodating a doubter. He is performing a covenant act. He is ushering Thomas into resurrection reality. He is giving Thomas his own “new creation” moment. Thomas’s doubt is not the center of the story. Jesus’s covenant faithfulness is. Thomas sets conditions: “I won’t believe unless…” But covenant doesn’t begin with our belief. It begins with God’s promise. Jesus meets Thomas exactly where his unbelief lives — in the wounds. And Thomas responds with the clearest confession in the Gospel: “My Lord and my God!” The eighth day turns doubt into worship. It turns absence into belonging. It turns unfinished faith into resurrected faith.

Biblical Principle

God completes what He begins — even when we falter, delay, or miss the moment. The eighth day reveals a covenant God who returns for the one who wasn’t in the room, restores the one who struggled to believe, and brings His people into the fullness of new creation. Maybe you feel like Thomas. Maybe you missed a moment. Maybe you feel late to faith, late to healing, late to hope. Maybe you’re watching others rejoice while you’re still trying to breathe. The eighth day tells you this: Jesus comes back for you. He steps into locked rooms. He speaks peace into anxious hearts. He meets you in the very place you’re afraid to look. And He invites you — gently, firmly — into belief, into restoration, into new creation life. The eighth day is not just a date on the disciples’ calendar. It is the rhythm of God’s covenant love. And it is still happening.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, Thank You for being the God who returns for us. Thank You for covenant faithfulness that does not depend on our strength, our timing, or our perfect presence. Meet us in our doubts, our fears, and our locked‑room moments. Breathe Your peace over us. Lead us into the eighth‑day life — the life of new creation, restored faith, and renewed hope. Make us people who believe, not because we see everything clearly, but because You have shown Yourself faithful again and again. Amen.

A Journey Through the Gardens Where God Meets Humanity

From the Garden of Creation to the Garden of Resurrection

By Pastor Dee

House of Prayer Ministry

Spring has arrived again, and many of us are stepping outside with our gloves and watering cans, ready to tend the gardens that have been resting all winter. There is something sacred about this yearly ritual. The warming soil carries the scent of life returning, and the tender green shoots remind us that God has woven resurrection into creation itself. As we prepare our flowerbeds and coax new life from the ground, we are participating in a rhythm far older than we are—a rhythm that began in the very first garden where God placed humanity. The turning of seasons becomes a gentle invitation to remember the great biblical story that also begins, meets us again, and ends in a garden.


🌱 The First Garden: Eden and the Presence of God

The biblical story opens with God planting a garden in Eden, a place overflowing with His presence, beauty, and harmony. In this garden, God walked with His creation; humanity’s first vocation was not hurried or anxious, but peaceful and attentive. Adam and Eve were invited to cultivate life, to steward what God had lovingly planted, and to enjoy unbroken fellowship with Him. Eden was not merely a location—it was a picture of how life with God was meant to be: flourishing, intimate, and whole. When sin entered the story, exile from the garden was not only a physical departure but a spiritual ache, a deep memory of the communion humanity was formed for. From that moment forward, Scripture becomes a long, tender story of God drawing His people back to that place of life with Him.


🌿 Gardens Along the Way: Echoes of Eden Through Scripture

Even after Eden closed behind humanity, God never stopped whispering garden promises. Throughout the Old Testament, the Tabernacle and Temple were adorned with carvings of flowers, fruit, branches, and blossoms, as if God were saying, “I am preparing a way back to My presence.” The prophets also spoke in garden language—Isaiah described deserts bursting into bloom, and Jeremiah envisioned God’s people becoming “like a well-watered garden.” These images were not poetic accidents; they were signs of hope. They reminded Israel that the God who once walked among the trees of Eden was still moving toward His people, still cultivating life in places that felt barren, still promising restoration in the midst of wilderness. The garden, woven quietly throughout the Scriptures, becomes a symbol of God’s determination to restore what was lost.


🌸 The Garden of Gethsemane: The Second Adam Kneels to Restore What Was Broken

On the night of the Last Supper, Jesus led His disciples to a garden—Gethsemane. This moment is deeply meaningful, for it is in a garden that the first Adam stepped away from God’s will, and it is in a garden that the second Adam fully surrendered Himself to the Father. After singing a hymn, Jesus entered the olive grove to pray, and the weight of the world pressed upon Him. Theologians often describe this scene as “the reversal of Eden,” because here Jesus speaks the words Adam never could: “Not My will, but Yours be done.” In Eden, humanity chose autonomy over obedience, and the ground became cursed. In Gethsemane, Jesus chose obedience over self-preservation, and His submission becomes the seedbed of redemption. Many scholars say that the victory of the cross was already taking root in the soil of Gethsemane, where Jesus resolved to drink the cup of suffering for the sake of the world. In this garden, salvation begins to blossom.


🌼 The Garden of the Resurrection: Mary Meets the Gardener of New Creation

When dawn broke on resurrection morning, John tells us that Jesus’ tomb was in a garden. Mary Magdalene, heartbroken and confused, stood weeping near the empty tomb. When she turned and saw Jesus, she assumed He was the gardener—an assumption that carries more truth than she realized. Jesus is the Gardener: the Restorer of Eden, the One who brings life out of death, the cultivator of new creation. The first Adam’s failure in a garden led to death; the risen Christ, standing in a garden, signals that death has been defeated. Mary becomes the first witness to this new creation, the first voice to announce that Jesus is alive, the first to step into the restored garden of God’s renewing work. This scene is tender and triumphant all at once, a moment when Eden begins to bloom again.


🌳 The Final Garden: Revelation and the Return of Eden

The Bible ends the way it began—with a garden. In Revelation, we see a renewed creation where the river of life flows from the throne of God and the tree of life bears fruit for the healing of the nations. The curse that began in Eden is finally undone. What was once a garden lost becomes a garden restored and expanded—a garden-city where God dwells forever with His people. No more exile, no more brokenness, no more distance. The presence of God fills everything, and life flourishes everywhere He reigns. The long story of Scripture—creation, fall, redemption, and restoration—finds its fulfillment in this final, everlasting garden.


🌷 What This Means for Us as We Tend Our Spring Gardens

As you kneel in your yard this spring, planting flowers or pulling weeds, may your heart remember the God who works in gardens. The story of salvation is rooted in soil, in seeds, in surrender, in resurrection. Christ, the true Gardener, is tending you even now. He is pulling up what harms, planting what brings life, and nurturing growth in places you once thought were barren. Just as the earth bursts forth with new life when the season turns, so does God continue His renewing work in us. Spring becomes more than a season; it becomes a reminder that the Gardener of Gethsemane, the Gardener of the Resurrection, and the Gardener of New Creation is making all things new—starting with the soil of our own hearts.

Heavenly Father,
As I stand in this garden, I thank You for the gift of creation and the privilege of nurturing life from the soil. Bless the seeds I plant and the ground I tend. May each one take root and flourish as a reflection of Your love.Grant me wisdom as I care for this garden—when to water, when to prune, and when to simply trust Your hand at work. Protect these plants and let Your peace rest over this place.As I work the soil, fill my heart with gratitude for the beauty around me. Let the harvest nourish both body and spirit, and teach me patience as I wait for growth in Your perfect timing.Thank You, Lord, for the lessons this garden teaches—life, growth, and the steady nurture that mirrors Your care for us. May this space be a sanctuary of peace and a testament to Your grace.

In Jesus’ holy name, Amen.

The Quiet War Within

by Pastor Dee

Scripture:
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”
Romans 12:2


There are weeks when life stacks itself high—deadlines, projects, ministry tasks, and family commitments—all good, all important, all pressing at once, and last week was one of those weeks. I was preparing a presentation, polishing slides, transferring footnotes, gathering research, and trying to anticipate every question I might be asked. I poured so much of myself into the work that I rushed right past the most important part of my day. I missed my daily Bible reading, my quiet time, and the stillness where my soul usually resets. At first, I didn’t think much of it and told myself I’d catch up tomorrow, but by the end of that long day—and the next one—I could feel the shift. Doubts crept in that hadn’t bothered me in months, small worries grew louder, my confidence wavered in places where I normally feel steady, and my thoughts felt scattered, restless, and unanchored. Nothing in my circumstances had changed—but something in my mind had. And then I realized what had happened: I had filled my schedule, but not my spirit; my hours, but not my heart; my mind with information—but not with truth. The difference was unmistakable.

What C. S. Lewis Helped Me Remember

In that moment, a line from C. S. Lewis came back to me—a quiet truth from one of Christianity’s most influential thinkers. Lewis, an Oxford professor and author of The Chronicles of Narnia, Mere Christianity, and The Screwtape Letters, had a gift for uncovering spiritual realities hidden inside ordinary moments. He once said something to the effect that:

Most of our outward struggles begin as inner whispers.

Those words hit me hard, because I wasn’t acting on truth—I was reacting to noise. Lewis understood the discipline of the mind, how feelings fluctuate, how thoughts drift, and how fears rehearse themselves. He knew the Christian life is not built on spontaneous inspiration but on formation. And formation requires repetition—holy repetition.

Why Missing Scripture Matters More Than We Think

When I skipped my time in the Word, it wasn’t God who moved—it was my mind that wandered. Fear found space to speak, anxiety rehearsed old lines, and insecurity regained volume, not because anything new had happened, but because I hadn’t trained my thoughts that morning. Scripture is more than spiritual reading; it is soul‑defense, mind‑renewal, and the voice that must speak louder than the whispers. The mind is never empty—it is always being formed by something. When I begin my day without God’s Word, other voices rush to fill the silence, but when I begin with Scripture, truth becomes the strongest voice in the room.

A Simple Practice to Strengthen the Inner Life

Here is a simple step—one that changed my week when I returned to it: choose one Scripture for the week and write it, speak it, pray it, return to it, and repeat it. Don’t try to tackle the whole Bible in a morning—just choose one verse that anchors your heart. Maybe it’s “You are with me,” or “Your grace is sufficient,” or “The Lord is my refuge,” or “His mercies are new every morning.” Let that one truth fill the space where fear once rehearsed itself. By the end of the week, you’ll notice clarity, steadiness, and peace—not because your circumstances changed, but because you fed your mind and heart with truth.

A Closing Prayer

Heavenly Father,
thank You for Your Word that steadies my heart and renews my mind.
Forgive me for the moments when I rush past Your voice.
Teach me to start my days with truth,
to fill my mind with Your promises,
and to train my thoughts to follow You, not fear.
Let Scripture become the rhythm of my inner world
and the anchor of my soul.
Renew my mind, Lord,
and through that renewal, reshape my life.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.

When We Fail, God’s Promises Still Stand

Seeing God’s Faithfulness in the Middle of Human Brokenness

I have been spending time reading through the Bible, tracing God’s covenants from the very beginning. And one truth keeps rising to the surface: over and over again, people fail—but God’s promises keep moving forward. As my grandmother used to say, “The proof is in the pudding.” The evidence of His faithfulness is right there in the story.

“The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.”
Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV)

This truth has been especially grounding for me in a season when Christians sometimes speak past each other, or even against each other, based on worship styles, denominational differences, or questions of calling. I’ve heard sincere believers tell others, “You’re not Christian enough,” or “Your way of worship is wrong,” as if our salvation depends on personality or preference rather than the finished work of Christ. Some churches build elaborate step‑by‑step systems to help people move from brokenness into Jesus’ arms. Others insist they are “not religious,” but still create their own unwritten rules and expectations.

And as a woman (AND a senior citizen!!) who loves Scripture, theology, and the proclamation of the gospel, I’ve felt tension in certain circles. I can study anything in the world, but the moment I love studying the Bible or feel the Holy Spirit stirring me to preach or bear witness to Christ, suddenly that passion is questioned. But when I lift my eyes back to Scripture, I find peace again. No human system—no opinion, structure, or tradition—can stop the forward movement of God’s promises. I have preached on the Old Testament and God’s Covenant so many times, but should we not cease in celebrating His Glory? So here it is again:

The Old Testament: A Story of Human Failure and Divine Faithfulness

Throughout its pages, humanity fails repeatedly, yet God remains faithful. Adam and Eve disobey God in the garden (Genesis 3), but He still seeks them, clothes them, and promises that one day the serpent will be crushed (Genesis 3:15, 21). As wickedness fills the earth in Noah’s time (Genesis 6:5), God preserves Noah’s family and establishes a covenant of mercy symbolized by the rainbow (Genesis 8:20–22; 9:8–17). Abraham lies about Sarah (Genesis 12:10–20; 20:1–18), doubts God’s promise (Genesis 17:17; 18:12), and takes matters into his own hands with Hagar (Genesis 16). Yet God patiently reaffirms His covenant again and again, providing Isaac just as He promised (Genesis 17:19; 21:1–3).

The same pattern continues with Abraham’s descendants. Isaac repeats his father’s mistakes by lying about Rebekah (Genesis 26:6–11). Jacob deceives his father and cheats his brother (Genesis 27). Their household fractures under the weight of favoritism. But God still renews His covenant with Isaac and Jacob (Genesis 26:24; 28:13–15) and even blesses Jacob with a new name—Israel (Genesis 32:28).

Joseph’s brothers betray him and sell him into slavery (Genesis 37), but God works through the injustice, remaining with Joseph in Egypt (Genesis 39:2–3) and turning their evil intent into salvation for many during a famine (Genesis 50:20).

Israel’s story is no different. Delivered from Egypt, the people complain, rebel (Exodus 15–17), melt down their gold for an idol (Exodus 32), and refuse to enter the Promised Land (Numbers 13–14). Yet God keeps providing, forgiving, and leading, ultimately bringing the next generation into the land He promised (Deuteronomy 31:7–8). During the chaotic time of the judges, when “everyone did what was right in his own eyes” (Judges 21:25), God continues sending deliverers. Even when the kings fail—Saul’s disobedience (1 Samuel 15), David’s sin (2 Samuel 11–12), Solomon’s idolatry (1 Kings 11:1–13)—God still preserves the line of David and promises a coming King whose throne will last forever (2 Samuel 7:12–16). And though the people are eventually exiled for persistent rebellion (2 Kings 17; 25), God promises restoration, a new covenant, and a new heart (Jeremiah 31:31–34; Ezekiel 36:26–28).

A Faithful God in a Failing World

The message woven through every page is unchanging: humans fail, but God is faithful. His promises march forward. His covenant stands firm. His redemption story never collapses—not under sin, not under rebellion, not under fear, and not under the judgments of people.

This truth steadies my soul. It invites me—and all of us—to worship, praise, and adore our Father, our Savior Jesus, and the Holy Spirit who forms Christ in us. And as we look ahead to the Kingdom that is coming, we remember that this world is not our home. God’s promises have carried His people from Eden to exile to Christ—and they will carry us, too.

🙏 Closing Prayer

Heavenly Father, thank You for the faithfulness that flows through every page of Scripture and every season of our lives. When we fall short, Your mercy rises to meet us. When we wander, Your covenant love draws us back. Teach us to trust Your promises more than our performance, and to rest in the grace that carries us when we cannot carry ourselves. Holy Spirit, keep our hearts soft, teachable, and open to Your leading. Form Christ within us, even in our weakness. Let Your presence anchor us in every storm and guide us in every step, Lord Jesus. Help us to fix our eyes on You—the fulfillment of every promise and the hope of every generation. As we wait for Your Kingdom, keep us worshiping, loving, and serving with joy. Let our lives reflect Your faithfulness to a world in need. In Jesus holy and precious name, Amen.

From Self-Focused to God-Focused: Getting the Gospel Back

Why God’s Promises Come Before My Story

Somewhere along the way, the modern church began telling the gospel as if the whole thing starts—and ends—with me. My sin. My need. My salvation. My story. My hope.

The gospel doesn’t begin at my crisis; it begins at God’s promise.

But imagine this with me for a moment.
Imagine God, manifested, stepping into the room—glorious, holy, faithful, the Keeper of every promise He has ever made—and all we talked about was me. My feelings. My struggles. My spiritual journey. My testimony.

And we never once mentioned Him.
Never once did we acknowledge that the only reason I even have a testimony is that God keeps His promises.

If that picture feels off, it’s because it is.
We have made ourselves the center of a story that was never about us in the first place.

The Story Begins With God, Not Us

The Bible does not open with human need.
It opens with God’s purpose.
God’s voice.
God’s covenant.
God’s faithfulness.

Long before I ever needed saving, God had already spoken a promise that would shape the entire story of redemption.

The first time God declares, “I will be your God,” is in Genesis 17:7, when He speaks to Abraham:

“I will establish my covenant… to be God to you and to your offspring after you.”

This is the moment the story truly begins—not with Abraham’s faith, not with his obedience, not with his righteousness, but with God’s covenant initiative.

God steps toward humanity and binds Himself to a people.
Not because they were faithful.
Not because they were deserving.
But because He is faithful, and He keeps His word.

Salvation Is Inside the Covenant—But It Is Not the Whole Covenant

We often talk as if the covenant is simply “God saved me.”
But salvation is only one part of a much larger promise.

The covenant includes:

• a people
• a land
• a blessing to the nations
• a Messiah
• a Kingdom
• a restored creation
• and a final return

Salvation is a gift inside the covenant, but the covenant is the entire redemptive story of God’s faithfulness from Genesis to Revelation.

When we reduce the gospel to “I got saved,” we shrink the story down to something far too small.
The covenant is not about my moment of conversion.
It is about God’s eternal commitment to redeem, restore, and reign.

A Covenant That Survived Everything

If the covenant depended on human faithfulness, it would have collapsed before it ever began.
But it depends on God.
And because of that, it has survived everything.

It survived famine.
It survived slavery in Egypt.
It survived the wilderness.
It survived the judges, the kings, and the prophets.
It survived exile in Babylon.
It survived the rise and fall of empires.
It survived dispersion across the nations.
It survived persecution, pogroms, and centuries of wandering.
It survived Hitler.

Even in the darkest chapter of Jewish history—when six million Jews were murdered in an attempt to erase them from the earth—the covenant people were not destroyed.

Why?
Because God had already spoken:
“I will be your God.”

And God does not break His word.

The Covenant Reaches Its Fulfillment in King Jesus

This is where King‑Jesus theology brings the whole story into focus.

Jesus is:

• the Seed of Abraham
• the true Israel
• the Son of David
• the promised Messiah
• the King of the Kingdom
• the One who brings Gentiles into the covenant
• the One who guarantees every promise God ever made

The gospel is not “I accepted Jesus.”
The gospel is Jesus is King, and because He is King, He saves.

His return is not an optional add‑on.
It is the final covenant promise—the moment when God completes what He began with Abraham.

The Covenant in 2026

Here we are, thousands of years after God spoke to Abraham, and the covenant still stands.
The Jewish people still exist.
The Church still exists.
The gospel still advances.
The Kingdom still grows.
And Jesus is still King.

Human unfaithfulness has never canceled divine faithfulness.
Not once.
Not ever.

So What Happens If We Return to God’s Story?

If the story begins with God’s covenant, God’s faithfulness, God’s mercy, God’s promise, and God’s King—
then what happens when we stop making me the center and start making Him the center again?

Here’s the truth:
When we return to God’s story, everything else finally makes sense.
My salvation makes sense.
My suffering makes sense.
My purpose makes sense.
My hope makes sense.

Because all of it flows from who God is, not from who I am.

But this is not a question I can answer for you.
This is a question you must carry into the presence of the God who keeps His covenant.
He is in the room.
He is listening.
He is faithful.
And He is inviting you to ask Him:

“Lord, where have I made myself the center of a story that belongs to You?”
“Show me how to live inside Your covenant, not inside my own small version of the gospel.”

Let Him speak.
Let Him realign your heart.
Let Him remind you that the story He began with Abraham is the same story He is still writing in 2026—and the same story He will complete when King Jesus returns.

A Prayer

Father,
You are the God who keeps covenant and shows mercy from generation to generation.
Forgive us for the times we have made ourselves the center of the story.
Turn our eyes back to You—Your faithfulness, Your promises, Your Kingdom, and Your Son.
Teach us to live inside the covenant You began long before we were born and will complete long after our lives on earth are done.
Make us a people who honor Your story, trust Your promises, and wait with hope for the return of King Jesus.
Amen.

Breath for the Weary: What Joyful Gwen and Sleep Apnea Taught Me About God’s Rest

Meet Gwen Wallich — a joyful, Jesus‑loving sister whose bright spirit lights up every room.


A Table Where Fellowship Becomes Ministry

Once a month, The Lubbock Christian Women’s Connection gathers for a luncheon—a warm circle of women who love Jesus, love fellowship, and love cheering one another on in the faith. Women from all across our community meet over a buffet meal, hear an uplifting program, listen to personal testimonies, and leave with a little more hope than they came with.

This is where I first met Joyful Gwen (Gwen Wallich).
Bright colors, cheerful jewelry, the happiest hat, and a presence that felt like sunshine and Scripture all at once. We struck up a conversation as if we had known one another for years. She shared her chaplaincy studies; I told her about my Doctor of Ministry work. By the time we said goodbye, we both knew it wouldn’t be our last conversation.

This month, although I was too late to sit beside her (I’m always late!), she found me afterward. Gwen wanted to share something personal and tender—her struggle with sleep apnea and a recent procedure called DISE.

And God used her story to show me something I needed to see.


A Hidden Struggle That Became a Revelation

DISE—Drug‑Induced Sleep Endoscopy—is a procedure where a doctor gently puts the patient into a sleep‑like state and watches the airway with a tiny camera. They identify exactly where the airway collapses and what is obstructing the breath.

As Gwen described what the doctors found, the Holy Spirit began stirring something deeper in me:

Our bodies can reveal parables about our souls.

Just like her airway was collapsing in the night, many believers experience a kind of spiritual collapse—moments where fear, grief, constant distraction, or hidden sin interrupts the flow of God’s breath in our lives.

And that brought me back to where breath began.


Breath From the Beginning

“Then the Lord God formed the man of dust from the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.”
Genesis 2:7

From the first pages of Scripture, life begins with God’s breath. We are not animated by accident or mere biology—we live because God leaned close and shared His own life with us. In Hebrew, the word for breath, wind, and Spirit is the same: ruach. God’s ruach animates creation (Gen. 1:2), fills Adam’s lungs (Gen. 2:7), revives the dry bones (Ezek. 37:5–6), sustains every creature (Acts 17:25), and even empowers the Church when Jesus breathes on His disciples and says, “Receive the Holy Spirit” (John 20:22). Breath is deeply connected to God and to our spiritual life—it is a sign that God is near.

This is why rest is so central to the gospel invitation. Jesus calls, “Come to Me, all who are weary… and I will give you rest” (Matt. 11:28). The rest He offers isn’t lazy or numb; it’s the deep restoration that happens when our lives return to God’s rhythm—when our inner world inhales grace and exhales trust. The psalmist reaches for the same image: “Let everything that has breath praise the LORD” (Ps. 150:6). Praise itself becomes a kind of breathing—receiving from God and returning it to Him in worship.

Whispering Yahweh With Every Breath

There is also a tender, ancient insight many believers cherish: the name of God on our breath. When we inhale, it sounds like “Yah,” and when we exhale, it sounds like “weh.” While this is a devotional reflection rather than a linguistic rule, it beautifully reminds us that every breath can become prayer—that from first cry to last sigh, we are whispering the covenant Name, YHWH, with the rise and fall of our lungs. In other words, even when we feel wordless, our bodies are still praying.

And this is why the image of spiritual apnea is so compelling. Just as sleep apnea repeatedly interrupts physical breathing, our souls can suffer from disruptions that block the steady flow of God’s life in us—fear that tightens, sin that chokes, grief that weighs, hurry that fragments, distractions that deplete. We wake just enough to function but not enough to fully live. Scripture speaks directly to this drowsiness of the heart: “Wake up, sleeper… and Christ will shine on you” (Eph. 5:14). The Spirit does what DISE does in the clinic—He gently reveals the hidden collapses, not to shame us but to heal us, inviting us to cooperate with grace through simple obediences that reopen the airway of the soul: prayer, Scripture, confession, worship, fellowship, and rest.

So we return to breath.
Inhale: “Yah” — receive.
Exhale: “weh” — release.

Receive the Spirit’s life. Release control, fear, and striving.
Let every breath become worship, every pause become prayer, and every night’s rest become a small repentance from hurry back into His presence. He gave us breath in the beginning, and He delights to restore it now.

Let Us Pray

Heavenly Father, thank You for the breath in our lungs and the rest You offer our souls. Teach us to inhale Your grace and exhale our fears, to breathe Your Name—Yah… weh—with every rise and fall of our chest. Wake us where we have grown weary or spiritually drowsy, and clear anything that blocks the life You long to give.

Thank You for the Lubbock Christian Women’s Connection, for the fellowship they cultivate, the stories that strengthen faith, and the way You use that gathering as a place of encouragement and renewal. Bless every woman who serves, welcomes, invites, and prays. Let their table continue to be a well of living water for our community.

Lord, we lift up our sister, Joyful Gwen. Cover her with Your healing hand. Restore her breath and her rest. Guide every treatment, every night’s sleep, and every step of her healing. Protect her home, her health, and her calling. Anoint her chaplaincy with compassion, wisdom, and Your unmistakable presence.

And Father, bless our friendship. Make it life‑giving, honest, prayerful, and anchored in Christ. Let our conversations honor You and our connection strengthen the work You’re doing in both of our lives.

Now may the Lord who breathed life into you bless you and keep you,
restore your breath and renew your rest,
and surround you with His peace.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

The Geometry of Harmony: How Four Voices Reflect God’s Design

The Gutschke family, Nathan and Dawn with their sons Jonathan (24) and Daniel (15), a family whose shared faith and love of music have shaped a lifetime of harmony.

A Family Shaped by Faith, Music, and Harmony

The Gutschke family reflects a beautiful blend of faith, family, and harmony. Nathan and Dawn, along with their sons Jonathan (24) and Daniel (15), have spent their lives singing a cappella in church and sharing music as an expression of worship and community. Dawn brings years of choir, show choir, and musical experience from high school and college, while Nathan—once a proud band geek—earned his master’s degree in music and served as a band director for eight years. For the past twenty‑four years, they have also sung together in barbershop quartets and choruses, carrying their love of close harmony into every season of life. Their sons have followed right along: Jonathan sang in band and choir throughout middle and high school, and Daniel is already walking in his big brother’s musical footsteps.

Their story opens the door into something I’ve been reflecting on deeply—how harmony can point us toward God’s design, His order, and His desire for His people to walk in righteousness and unity. It’s what I call the sacred beauty of four.


“Sing to the Lord a new song; sing to the Lord, all the earth.”
Psalm 96:1


The Subtle Pattern of “Four” in Scripture

Scripture is full of gentle patterns that draw our attention to God’s intentional design. We read of the four corners of the earth, the four rivers flowing from Eden, the four Gospels telling the one story of Jesus, and the four living creatures surrounding the throne in Revelation. Even God’s covenant name is written with four letters—YHWH (יהוה), the Tetragrammaton.

I don’t treat this as numerology, but as a quiet reminder that God often weaves the number four into expressions of order, witness, and beauty. And in the world of close harmony—especially barbershop—there are also four parts that must work together to create one ringing, unified sound that reflects God’s creativity, structure, and purpose.


“For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.”
1 Corinthians 14:33


How Close Harmony Forms Us

Barbershop harmony is different from most choral experiences. It isn’t about hiding within a section or blending into a large group; it requires a unique closeness—almost a musical geometry—where each vocal line meets the others with precision, shaping a sound that cannot be produced alone. In this style, you don’t coast, you don’t hide, and you don’t sing your part without listening—really listening. Every rehearsal invites you to lean toward the people beside you, to adjust constantly, to communicate, and sometimes even to breathe together. It is relational music and vulnerable music, the kind that insists on genuine connection.


“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly… singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs.”
Colossians 3:16


The Holiness in Every Choir

There is a holy beauty in every expression of group singing. In a church choir, voices rise as worship, lifting Scripture and praise to God. This unity is sacred—it forms community and strengthens believers in a way that only worship can. In a community choir, there is holiness in the shared joy of music and in friendships formed over rehearsals, laughter, and performances.

Barbershop harmony is equally beautiful, but it calls for its own set of skills:

  • deeper listening
  • constant interaction
  • fine‑tuned adjustment
  • vulnerability
  • teamwork on a micro‑level

Each form of choral singing honors God in its own way, but barbershop adds a vivid spiritual metaphor through its closeness and intentional unity.


When the Chord Finally Locked

I remember a rehearsal when everything felt wrong—we were off pitch, tense, and frustrated—until the director finally stopped us and said, “You’re singing your part, but not together. The ringing only comes when you listen to each other.” So we tried again, and something shifted. We softened, leaned in, and stopped trying to be heard, choosing instead to support one another. Lead found the melody, bass laid the foundation, baritone glued the chord, and tenor added the shimmer. And then—the chord locked. The sound that rose in the air didn’t belong to any one of us; it hovered above, around, and through us. Singers call it an overtone, but to my heart, it became a quiet reminder of the beauty God creates when people surrender themselves to a shared purpose.


The Sacred Geometry of Four

This is where harmony meets holy presence. Music becomes divine because it points toward the work of the Holy Spirit. Scripture calls us to “Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace” (Ephesians 4:3), reminding us that unity is not something we manufacture but something the Spirit forms as we surrender—our preferences, our timing, our tone, and even our ego. Just like the four harmony parts, the body of Christ thrives when every voice listens, adjusts, and joins the whole without losing its God‑given identity. And when this happens, something rings—something unmistakable that turns our attention toward God’s presence and His righteous ways.

“Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.” Ephesians 4:3


Rehearsal as a Picture of Discipleship

Harmony teaches us the spiritual life:

You cannot grow alone.
You cannot worship without listening.
You cannot mature without adjusting.
You cannot experience unity without humility.

Rehearsal becomes a classroom for the soul—a place where believers show up, learn together, submit to one another, adjust as needed, and blend their lives into worship. The same God who designed four‑part harmony is the One who forms His people into a community of righteousness and grace. When we surrender to Him, something beautiful happens. The chord rings. The Spirit moves. Heaven feels near.


Looking Ahead

The sacred beauty of four is simply this: God’s people, tuned by His Spirit, walking in holiness together—distinct, devoted, and directed toward His glory. And as we think of the Gutschke family—Nathan, Dawn, Jonathan, and Daniel—may the Lord’s grace rest on their voices and their lives. May their home continue to echo with Scripture, kindness, and song; may their harmonies point hearts to God’s order and righteousness; and may their gifts strengthen the church and bless everyone who listens. Amen.